Mistakes And Other Inconsideracies

So you did it again. Both of you.

I'm not sure what is more appalling, more shocking. That you would lie and trick an innocent girl like me or that you would consciously leave your door unlocked. No. I don't believe that it was an accident as YOU say and that YOU went along with.

I suppose I'll start with your lies. I can't believe that you are so inconsiderate. I really can't. You, someone who listens to J. Lennon and wants to make the world a better place. You, who is a vegetarian and recycles. You, a person who fights against pollution and animal cruelty. I can't believe a person like you would be able to find the means to become an unfeeling, heartless jerk and play with the feelings of an innocent and unsuspecting girl like me. I think I know the reason why. Thanks to YOU, a peace loving person can become the opposite and have no feelings at all.

Like I said last time, I gave you your space. Both of you. I guess it wasn't good enough though because you have to go around and mess with people's feelings. I had a rehearsal and you took advantage of the situation. You know how important this is to me. That dancing and singing and performing and modeling are my life. That I create bonds with others through my rehearsals and groups and performances. Musical theater gives me joy and I had a show and you nearly ruined it for me.

I thought that you were being caring. I don't know why but I did. I guess because I'm a nice person and like to think people are doing things out of the goodness of their hearts. You knew I had a show that night and you came up and gave me money and a certificate to a spa, saying that I should relax before my big moment. That I should fix myself up. That should have told me right there because I know I look good. I'm confident in myself. I thought you were being nice though so I took your offer.

Boy was that a mistake.

The tanning place I went to? Yeah. It wasn't very good. It was the highest setting and I still wasn't tanning. I guess I can't blame you for not knowing about that. You're whiter than the snow that falls in Manhattan, so I shouldn't be surprised. You wouldn't know anything about tanning. You could have at least looked into the place. Like finding reviews. You do know what those are, right? Probably not because you're too busy shoving your tongue down THAT person's throat.

After wasting time, I knew I had to do something to help myself, so I headed to Mystic Tan to get a quick fix tan done for the big night. But thanks to your inability to do research, I ENDED UP ORANGE. Did that tanning place you sent me to have time released tans? I wouldn't put that past YOU to know. Roald is so right about you.

Thank goodness my boo loves me for me and he took me out and bought me a dress to make up for what you did. It's a little strappy number that's all shiny and ruffly and has an open back, but YOU are not allowed to see. Not after what you did. You don't deserve that.

I'm also thankful for my posse of kick ass girls. They really cheered me up and took me out for drinks after. JJ found out about it too and said we could put it on his tab.

See? Now THAT is what it means to care. But I don't expect someone like you to know. Not after what you did with your door.

Frankly I'm appalled. That you would purposely leave your door unlocked so anyone can just walk in and see you two going at it.

Which is what happened to me.

What? Are you shoving it my face? Is this your way of bragging? I already told you I don't want your cookies. Or YOUR cookies either. But first you leave your door open and then you have the nerve to call me a bitch AND throw me out?

I'm still so appalled. Do you think I'm jealous? Bitter? Well I'm NOT. My boo would never do that. Maybe you should take that class on being a gentleman that Roald suggested.

Not that it would do much.

What Were You Thinking?

That wasn't funny. It wasn't funny at all. I still can't get over you doing that. I was having a great night, having out with friends and just being myself and you had to go an ruin it. Well, you almost ruined it. I'm thankful Shay was there to block out your antics. I'm still mad, though. I really can't believe you would do something like that. And after Roald was nice enough to drive us all home. And from where? YOUR PARTY.

I hope you had a great night and are satisfied.

This is also your fault too. I know you think it's hilarious, that it's funny, but it isn't. You're probably sitting together now, laughing over it. That was so rude of you to do that in front of everyone. As if your antics at the party weren't enough. I know what you were trying to do. Haven't you learned that I'm not interested in your little friend? I'm not interested in you either, for that matter. I need someone mature and who respects me for who I am. I might be just your average girl but I have needs too and your little friend can't and won't do that.But that's okay because I found someone who can.

That doesn't mean you have to ruin the entire night. Why are you hating on me and disrupting the peace? In fact, you should be thanking me. Out of the goodness of my heart I realized what was going on and gave you your space. Both of you. Not that I wanted you, but I was considerate. I left you alone. Isn't that what you want? Like I said, you should be thanking me. All of us for that matter. Roald, Shay, JJ...we all gave you your space. There were others too, like Abbey and Jo, but they got smart a long time ago and ditched you.

I can see why.

Are you upset that Roald was there too? That you had to share the candlelight and cake? He had is specially made, you know. I think you can at least appreciate that and not get all mad that he had to share the day because he was flying out the next day for the weekend and wouldn't be there for his. Stop being selfish and start considering we have feelings too.

I guess you can't because you were so obvious. Both of you. First at the party where you were all over each other and practically ignored everyone else. Go get a room. You obviously thought that was funny though because you kept it up on the way home. I can't believe that you would do something like that one the way home. And in Roald's brand new Nissan! Not only do you practically get undressed and get all over each other again, but you force us out of our spots too. You're lucky Shay was too much of a gentleman to say anything or that Roals didn't kick you out or that JJ didn't complain. Next time I think they should.

Not that I intend to ride in the same car as you. Thanks again though for ruining what could have been a good evening.

Just keep that in mind next time you're in a car.

Starting fresh

So some jerk hacked my account and pretended to be someone else to get me in trouble. I don't know what that's about or anything about it but I know who you are that did that and it isn't funny. You should be helping me and my boyfriend to spread peace and love and not being childish. But I know you can't help it because you are a mean spirited person. If you want to be like that, fine. I know you think you're funny but go back to your cookie jar and leave us alone. Unless you start listening to J. Lennon and make him proud and start rebuilding the world so that it's full of happiness and pink clouds and bunnies and peace. End world hunger and stop hogging your cookies. I went to the candy store and shared what I got. I even shared what I already had. You should stop being selfish and do the same. In your arrogant self-righteousness and bad attitude you slowly take away what the rest of us are trying so hard to work for. You broke into the fairy circle of love and peace with your so-called jokes and tried to break up the group. Maybe those cookies are too tart for you.

I've already told you we don't need any of that. I've told both of you. All of you because I know you had help. But I'm a forgiving person and I'm cleaning things up here and getting a fresh start with my boyfriend and fixing up my account so you can't do anything to it again. Because I know it was you. But I'm moving on and getting my account together and getting a fresh start. I made new friends and slowly getting stuff back. They appreciate me for who I am just like my boyfriend does. He puts pictures of me on his website to prove it. Together me and Shay and my friends are going to make the world a better place.

Starting here.