Utterly shocked

I am sitting here in the comfort and safety of MY OWN dressing area, getting ready for tonight's show, and I am still in shock over what happened this weekend. Honestly, I just cannot believe it. I know what type of person you are but this? I didn't think that you would stoop this low.

This weekend was supposed to be a chance for us to relax and celebrate being in Chicago. I love Chicago and its people. I can see why JJ loves it here so much. Even when the winter is cold and you feel almost like you are numb and the sun is all hidden behind all those dark gray clouds, there is always someone ready to cheer you up. The people here know that it's rough and tough and that they need to be here for each other. This is something that you, both of you, need to learn. Maybe you might learn to like yourselves and be happy instead of feeling like you need to mess with other people. Sometimes your actions are mean and can hurt people and you should learn this. Luckily I have learned to toughen my skin and overlook your childish actions. Karma will win an I am luckily I am on karma's side. :)

We should feel honored that we have been asked for extra shows when our main performance run is over. Maybe you will learn from such nice people but I doubt that. You're too mean spirited to actually sit down and learn even if it is good for you. Which it is.

But I am surprised even for you. I can't believe you tricked a clueless person into trying to party like he's done it all his life. What did he ever do to you? Arthur may not have the artistic skills that we have but he is such a better person than you two, and that little group with "ugh" people you have. I really don't understand what you get out of laughing at others. This weekend though was just taking it too far. I know that you talk about me (for many reasons) and that you will talk about Roald and even Shay (and they have so much more talent than you than you care to realize) but you took it beyond and tricked some innocent person into getting into more than he bargained for, and I don't mean me.

And that's not all, but you used this to embarrass me, just your not-so-average girl wanting to have fun for the night with her friends. You really took it up to a new level with your childishness. And I thought the time you pretended to help me get ready for the show and sent me to a terrible tanning salon was bad. Such a new, new low for you and you should be ashamed of yourself.

It's one thing to buy drinks for people but this is new. Worse is that my new dress had to be sent to the dry cleaners. That isn't cheap. And I JUST bought it. JUST. Do you understand that? Did you realize that Arthur doesn't drink stuff that is bad for him? He is sXe, if you didn't know (although knowing you, you would use that as an excuse to do what you did). He is responsible when he parties. And to give him alcohol?! I am so embarrassed to know you right now. I can't believe you gave him a Jaeger bomb. Do you know what that DOES? I know you do, so don't try to deny it.

It's no wonder he spit it out. I am just beyond mad that you used me as a way to embarrass him AND ruin my dress in the process. It's a Chanel too, so don't try to apologize. Just consider yourself lucky that it can be dry cleaned. And be lucky that both of us are good sports and didn't make a scene right there, unlike the type you would have. He's such a great person to accept the tonic you bought him and that Abs was there to rush me back to change so I wouldn't miss out.

Really, I am going to speak with Roald about this to see what he can do. I don't think he will appreciate you trying to make one of his best assistants sick and one of his best performers angry. Don't be bitter that you don't practice enough to carry the show. Some of us actually work hard.

When it's time to return here to Chicago, maybe you will have learned something. I'm trying to stay positive that you will.

Peace Not War

Wow. I just really love this image so much. Peace is so important and it is so important to remember that we have to all work towards this. We have to work together for karma and it doesn't help if everyone is running around trying to shoot at each other.

It is a lot like the people I work with. We are all trying to put on a good performance but some people like to try and cause trouble. You know who you are. But I'm trying not to pay attention or let it bother me because I know I am better than that. I am putting a flower in the gun that is your bad attitudes and I'm going to rise above what you are trying to do. Today I am putting on a happy face. :)

I hope we all can remember to give peace a chance like J. Lennon says and that shooting and war only hurt a lot of people. Just like trying to mess up people's happiness and ruin their days. But if we work together for a revolution then we can forget about guns and wars and live in peace with each other. Please join in the new revolution for a better tomorrow.

At it again...

I can't believe you two.

Wait, yes I can. You've done this before. Many times in fact. Why should I think either of you have changed? That would just be me being idealistic and wishful thinking. I thought for a while you were quiet and had stopped with your childish pranks, but then i remembered we were on holiday breaks and that you two weren't there. I should have known that. But then that's just me being idealistic. I can only imagine how you spent vacation, running around Boston and making people's lives miserable. I'm glad you weren't in New York with me. It might be a big city but you two just can't seem to give me any peace when we're in the same place. Grow up already.

This surprised me even though it shouldn't have. It was opening night. Opening night! Do you hear that? You could have made a bad impression on the audience and we worked HARD for this. And here you go trying to ruin it. You should be ashamed of yourselves but you're too immature to realize this. And those other two! They weren't any better. But this isn't about them, it's about you, and you are going to hear me out. You of all people should know how important this is, yet you have the nerve to call that dancing. The nerve! And you trying to maintain the behind the scenes work. Next time make sure you aren't eye fucking each other long enough to get your cues right. This isn't just about you, it's about all of us, so start acting like it.

What shocks me more is that your little tricks and schemes have infected a few of the others and now they are in on it. Are you rubbing it in my face? Are you trying to prove something? Well you're not. I told you I found my Edward Cullen and he is. Not. You. Get it through your head.

Too bad you're too busy doing other things, or should I say people, to actually do that.

Luckily the show went on and that your antics didn't affect us. I'm surprised you managed to tone it down for the second two shows. I think I've found my reason though, and that you are intimidated by Shay's mastery with the direction. You thought you could run everything and ruin the show opening night since he couldn't be with us, but now you're singing a different tune.

We've got another performance tonight, so don't mess it up. I'm surprised you of all people are dancing and not working behind the scene. Someone needs to change this because you obviously don't know what you're doing. Roald will put an end to this.

Although I'm worried that if we put you backstage, we won't have any music AT ALL because you two will be TOO BUSY licking each other's throats. Get a room.

And make sure you LOCK THE DOOR. I'm tired of repeat performances.